"I'm Happy"

These were the words my sweet little Bella said to me this morning as we cuddled on the couch and were reading books together. There are no other words that a mama wants to hear....I loved it. My heart swelled and my eyes filled with tears. How did I get so lucky in life. My blessings are beyond bountiful. That being said.....
I feel like I have been going through a wide range of emotions these past few weeks as I am getting ready to head back to work full time.
Sadness: of course I am sad to leave my little peanut and realize the amount of of time I will no longer have with her.
Anxiety: Can I juggle working full time, being a mama (a good one hopefully), carting kids to different activities, cleaning, cooking dinner every night, and still having good quality time with the family without being completely exhausted..... Ok, I am truly terrified.
Lucky: I am so lucky that I was able to spend the last year working part time and having so much time with my girls and watching so much with both of them. Driving Maddie to school, spending time at home with Bella Boo, cooking and baking more, visiting Daddy at work and meeting him for lunch, and so much more ...all these things were little, but just priceless to me.
Perspective: As much as I have found myself in a puddle of tears and emotions in these last weeks, I really have to remind myself to put things in perspective! I mean so many people wish they could be so lucky to get up everyday (yes even 5 days a week) to go to a job that they truly love. And I really do love teaching. I remind myself that we have two beautiful, healthy, and amazing girls that really have made me become a better person...they are always reminding me of the importance of life and love. I have a wonderful, supportive, and loving husband who does so much for our family and works so hard all the time!!! We have a home, food to eat (good food), an amazing family, a sweet little doggie (who drives us crazy too), and most importantly our health. I am a really a grateful person and I am trying so hard to spend my emotions on that gratitude.

Yes I know this year things will be different and it will be hard. However, I am determined to make the best of it!!